As a young child, I remember being fearless. I loved riding on my dad’s shoulders so I could touch the ceiling. I loved being catapulted into the air, knowing he would catch me when I started coming back down. But as I got older, fear started creeping in. My once carefree spirit was now riddled with worry and anxiety. What if I fall? What if you don’t catch me? I started to learn to depend more on myself than to trust my father to take care of me.
“At the same time came the disciples unto Jesus, saying, Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven? And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them, And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven. Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” (Matthew 18:1-4)
The disciples were so focused on the Kingdom that was to come rather than the King Himself. They saw the new reign of Jesus as an opportunity to rank high above others. Their focus was in the wrong place. Jesus had showed them time and time again what it meant to be first in the kingdom of God and that meant putting themselves last. But their self-centered flesh won over and they disputed amongst themselves about who would be the greatest in Jesus’ kingdom.
Jesus used the example of a child. He wasn’t saying that the disciples should be childish, they already had that down pat. Instead, He was saying they needed to be like children, relying on the Father to provide and take care of everything they needed. Children trust, they aren’t filled with worry and fear about what tomorrow holds, but they listen to the Father and do as He commands.
I read this question from the disciples, and I’ll be honest, at first, I thought, “shame on them, don’t they know better?” And then it hit me.
Shame on me.
I have spent most of my life learning to depend more on myself than to trust my Heavenly Father to take care of me.
Far too often, I pick up the burdens I’ve promised to give over to the Lord because I think I can do this. I can fix this. I can make it better. But all of my efforts are poor attempts compared to His righteous and perfect plan.
Full surrender. Not my will, but thine. It’s a daily choice. No more picking it up for awhile, it’s yours. I will trust in you, Lord, for all things in my life!